Not that it's any of my business you see, and as for the rest of the universe it doesn't much matter what you may think or believe. You see what you do, presume what you know or understand, but in the Grand Scheme of Things you are irrelevant, and what you see or feel or know in your head or your heart to be true is irreverant in light of a conscious aware, much less if it's not shared in the mutual relevance of resonance
or become in the present sense of mutual flow and shared intent.
The universe don't care about the you you don't have, or the feelings you bide in the guilt of your shame and your private remorse. The universe don't mind what you matter you see, and leaves that up to you you want to be you see.
The dogma of belief you claim is as insignificant as the truth of your bias, the value of your esteem, the worth of your need, the moral you heed, the reality you claim to percieve, the rights or respect you bequeath, your depths of prevation, hope for salvation, wrath or divine intervention you fear.
Given the nature of the universe, the resonance of relevance in harmony to shared intent, the present sense we share in mutual presence, the perspective we share in aware, and the knowing we have of how it feels and what feels good its a foregone conclusion.
There is no sense in arguing, much less if you mind the limited logic your'e left with under such conditions of stess, to vasalate about what you see as threat to your survival, cocacenate about the loss of sense, or pense on the lack of integrity to your reality. The universe don't care about your lack of reason, loss of mind or lucidity, you see.
As sacrosant is to belief, the nature of the universe flow forth the way it has before the minds of (wo)men portend significance and will so hence for ever more and its up to you you see. To join in the wonder of its awe, bask in the wade of its glory, or join the amaze of its journey become.